Monday, March 29, 2010
I've Got the Blues
Sorry, friends, this is not going to be my usual perky post. I'm just miserable this morning, despite a pretty good weekend. I'm frustrated, overwhelmed and disgusted with myself. There are too many mirrors in this house and they are not forgiving. I go to bed hating my body, hoping & wishing that somehowI could wake up thin. I wake up depressed that the miracle didn't happen. I hate the way I look right now yet sick & tired of thinking of diet & exercise 24/7. Spring is here, bathing suit season right around the corner, and I loathe the thought of splaying my fat butt across the beach.
The worst part is, I really have no one to talk to about this. My Man is one of those who can (and does) eat & drink whatever he wants without gaining. Most of my friends are in good, or at least decent, shape and the ones who aren't don't want to hear me whining. So, here I am, venting at you all. Thanks for "listening." I'm gonna go find something productive to do..maybe tearing down all the mirrors in the house and cutting out all the label in my clothing?