Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Crash & Burn

If you can't read the caption on the above photo, it reads: " The coupe was up on the sidewalk, lovingly embracing the telephone pole. 'It's not my fault that it got out of control,' said Peggy."

Not my fault, indeed! I guess I could follow Peggy's line of reasoning and claim it's not my fault that I allowed an emotional meeting with my estranged father to turn into a 3-chardonnay/half-a-loaf-of-Italian-bread & butter-lunch. Not my fault that I came home, vegged in front of the tv with a plate of sugar cookies. Not my fault that I ate 2 slices of pizza for dinner. Not my fault that I downed another glass of chardonnay before bed. Nope, none of it was my fault, was it?

On the contrary, there is no one to blame for that crash & burn but ME. I made the decisions, I could have chosen differently. I didn't have to use food as a balm for my wounded soul, it certainly didn't cure anything. I woke up this morning nauseated and more heartsick that yesterday, angry & frustrated with myself. I take responsibility for it, because it was indeed my fault. No excuses. So, after a healthy dose of self-reflection comes forgiveness and moving forward. Today's a new day, Scarlett.

Have a Beauty-Full One,


  1. Today IS a new day. I know you can do it.

  2. Yes, be good to yourself and that little girl inside you. Besides, living well is the best revenge.

  3. Thank you, Nic. I'm not 100% back on track but I'm getting there. It seems like 2 steps forward and 1 back all of the time.

  4. Thank you, Fragrant Liar, words of wisdom indeed!

  5. Hey, M ~

    The purpose of the wagon is to get right back on it - sounds like you already have!

    I do hope some positives came out of the meeting... and that he is taking some responsibility for the estrangement - as you say, though, forgiveness and moving forward are necessary... for all... <3

  6. forgiveness and moving forward -- it's the best thing you can do for yourself. Shake it off and move on. Like Scarlet O'hara says, "Tomorrow is Another Day." It seems to be my favorite quote these days. I'm an emotional binger myself and so I know how you feel.

    Wonder if we should invest in a punching bag and boxing gloves? Might be a better way to deal with our frustrations.

    BTW---I absolutely love your vintage grapics. Where do you find such great pictures?

    Can I just