Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Crash & Burn
If you can't read the caption on the above photo, it reads: " The coupe was up on the sidewalk, lovingly embracing the telephone pole. 'It's not my fault that it got out of control,' said Peggy."
Not my fault, indeed! I guess I could follow Peggy's line of reasoning and claim it's not my fault that I allowed an emotional meeting with my estranged father to turn into a 3-chardonnay/half-a-loaf-of-Italian-bread & butter-lunch. Not my fault that I came home, vegged in front of the tv with a plate of sugar cookies. Not my fault that I ate 2 slices of pizza for dinner. Not my fault that I downed another glass of chardonnay before bed. Nope, none of it was my fault, was it?
On the contrary, there is no one to blame for that crash & burn but ME. I made the decisions, I could have chosen differently. I didn't have to use food as a balm for my wounded soul, it certainly didn't cure anything. I woke up this morning nauseated and more heartsick that yesterday, angry & frustrated with myself. I take responsibility for it, because it was indeed my fault. No excuses. So, after a healthy dose of self-reflection comes forgiveness and moving forward. Today's a new day, Scarlett.
Have a Beauty-Full One,